Posted on June 27, 2014

All my life I have wanted to do something that means something. I always have had this thought in the back of my mind that I will be gone off of this Earth a little too early for my taste. But I guess that’s the same with anyone. I have always wanted to be remembered after I die, not just as Liz, but the girl Liz who did something wonderful and amazing that inspired many… I guess that’s why I started this whole thing, but the truth is I don’t know how to be meaningful. I think of people like Eva Markvoort who have made a significantly large impact on my life, my decisions, and me and hope that one day I could be put in the same league as her. Although I doubt I can or anyone can or will ever be able to compare me to her.
One problem is I am not very good at anything. I have been told all of my life that I am a really good singer, and I love to sing, but lately that’s been harder to do with these new lungs… I guess I just need to practice more. It’s funny, you’d think new lungs would have made it easier, but since before I so much air trapped in the bottom of my lungs and it took a long time to empty them I could hold a note for a long time. I didn’t need to learn air control because it just was how I breathed anyway. Lucky for me that part came pretty easily for me, almost naturally, but the higher notes are a little funky because my vocal chords act like they aren’t in sync with my lungs. Other than that I can’t really do anything. I paint and draw, but it’s never really very good unless I have a picture to emulate. I write a lot, but maybe it’s just me, but I just don’t find it very meaningful, or extremely good for that matter. I guess one thing I am good at is breathing. I don’t know what I can do for people to become a meaningful person to people other than family and friends. I want strangers to be inspired. I want everyone to be inspired.

1 Reply to "Meaningfulness"

  • Olivia
    August 28, 2014 (9:47 pm)

    You did have a meaningful life. You touched every person you met and your friends and family still share your website. I’ve stumbled upon it now, and am reading your posts. They make me feel more alive. Thank you for that. You are still meaningful. You always will be. You won’t be forgotten, and you will continue inspiring others. I hope CF stands for Cure Found too someday. RIP